Haven't posted a vent in years....so here goes
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2010 has been the worst year of my life, thus far. First off let me say that yes, I am very blessed to have 2 beautiful healthy little boys that are my whole life. Thank you God!!
Now to my vent, I only post here cause I don't like to unload on family and friends, although I do consider yall (whoever is left) my friends. My husband suffers from neck injuries due to his tour in Iraq in 05/06. They get worse everyday. The VA, to me, is a bunch of crap. They LOVE to give pain pills out but not really address the actual problem, which causes more problems not just for him but his whole family. He suffers from PTSD, again, VA wants to fix it with meds. He stays out of touch and depressed. I am just getting so tired of it all. Well all of that has just hit a all time high on my list of problems but that isn't the main thing. I lost my dad on November 15th. He has been fighting cancer for a while now, but was not at the point where we were even thinking death. He was fine on that Saturday (well he was in constant pain from the bone cancer and never really felt fine, but fine for him) and on Sunday afternoon, started to get sick, very quickly. Went to ER was running a temp of 105. By Monday at 1pm he has passed away. My sister who lives out of state kept asking me on Sunday if she needed to come, I kept telling her no, let just see what doc. says. I thought for sure he would get better and go home, like he always did. Well Monday about 11am his blood pressure was about 50 over 20, I called to tell her to come, but it was too late. She was 6 hours away and I feel so quilty about not telling her to come so she could be with him. My mom, my brother and me were with my dad when he took his last peaceful breath, which I am thanking to God for, but my poor sister and neice (whom, by parents raised as another child) didn't make it. All because I told them to wait. I talked to my dad and mom everyday about 4 or 5 times a day, saw them both everyday (only 1 mile part). I don't know how to go on with out my dad. My mom seems to be handling things pretty well. They were married for 53 years. I am so proud of her, but I am falling apart. No one knows though cause I keep it all inside. My husband has his own issues and is so out of touch with what is going on with me. He was not supportive at all when I needed him the most. Ok my vent of 2010 Hopefully I won't unload anymore not.
(((hugs))). Having lost two parents to cancer I know your pain. I am glad you mom is doing okay. My dad didn't handle it well, so in general it just sucked. Sorry you are having to experience this pain.
Thank you Kaye. 
I am very sorry. There is a a lot of pain going around. Hugs
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