with my bipolar disorder. Some of you may remember last year when I was diagnosed. It was kind of a relief to finally find out what was wrong with me. I take 2 meds to help control it but lately I feel like if not for DH and DK's I could end it all. It is really scary to feel this way and I know I could not do it because of my family. I could never put them through that. I am going to call my doctor tomorrow and talk to him about different meds. I have talked to Dh about it and it helps a little. I feel better today than I have in a while but I am afraid that it won't get better. Thanks for reading. I just needed to get it out.

By Happynerdmom on Sunday, December 14, 2008 - 03:49 pm:

((((Hugs)))) Latonya, my sister is bipolar and unfortunately it took a long time to get her meds right for her. Now she is doing very well most days. Please do call your doctor. Your bipolar will not go away, but you CAN feel better. It just sometimes takes a while to get the combination of meds right. I'm so glad you have a good support system in your family. Hang in there, girl!!! You'll be in my prayers. (((((HUGS))))

By Tink on Sunday, December 14, 2008 - 04:23 pm:

While I'm not bipolar, I suffered a devastating depression this summer and fall. PLEASE see your doctor, even if it feels impossible to make that effort. If you can't do that (I couldn't), ask your dh or a trusted friend to make an appointment for you. It took a few tries to get my medication adjusted appropriately but it really helps now and is allowing me to enjoy the holidays. Christmas is the first thing I've looked forward to in 9 months. Keep talking to your dh about how you're feeling and keep coming here to get some of these feelings out. I'll be thinking about you. {{{Hugs}}}

By Ginny~moderator on Monday, December 15, 2008 - 12:19 pm:

Repeating what everyone has said above, and adding that holidays are very difficult times for people with mental illnesses. My son has suffered from severe depression and holidays were always incredibly depressing and difficult for him. You have, as you said, the best reasons to keep trying. I will pray for you.