I have panic disorder. I've taken an antidepressant for 20 years. I haven't had a panic attack in 20 years. I was in therapy for 17-18 years, just about 2-3 years ago I stopped. I was doing really well. Started a new job a few weeks ago and bam! I had a major panic attack. Right now I am suffering from residual anxiety and if anyone has experienced depersonalization, that is what I am experiencing from time to time. I know that I am better this time than the first panic attack because I know what happen. I know that to fight and fear the anxiety will just make it worse. But, I gotta tell you, the periods of anxiety are driving me crazy. I can function, but I am still nervous and the thoughts of trying to find a job like this overwhelming. I did get in touch with my therapist and will see her Monday. Just trying to reach out and see if any of you can help me with your experience and what has worked for you. Thanks Friends, Janie

By Happynerdmom on Thursday, May 8, 2008 - 11:56 am:

I have no advice for you, Janie, just wanted to give you (((Hugs))). I'm glad you are seeing your therapist Monday. It must be very frustrating to be dealing with something you haven't had to deal with for 20 years! Hang in there...

By Bobbie~moderatr on Thursday, May 8, 2008 - 05:22 pm:

More hugs..

By Crystal915 on Thursday, May 8, 2008 - 10:15 pm:

Janie, big hugs to you!!! I totally understand, I have anxiety disorder, and am thinking about going back on ben zos because my anxiety is starting to interfere with my life again. I also take anti-depressants (Celexa), but have reached a point where I think I need something stronger for the bad moments. I don't know how you feel about taking ben zos, or if you have ever tried them, but there is an extended release Xan ax (all of those are broken up to try and prevent search hits) that worked well for me in the past. It doesn't have the nasty effects an instant release can, and can be taken for long periods of time if needed, with **lessened** risk of addiction. Good luck, and come here to talk any time, this is one great group of women, and between us we have seen and been through it all!!!!

By Bobbie~moderatr on Thursday, May 8, 2008 - 10:33 pm:

LOL @ you Crys... Some of us have seen and been through it all time and time again... and still haven't learned a darn thing.. LOL

By Jayne2 on Friday, May 9, 2008 - 08:36 am:

Thank you for your support...this is a very lonely experience. This zaps your confidence and makes you feel so vulnerable. I am so angry that this happened.