Well, dh and I are trying to quit smoking, my emotions have been up and down today, I wanted to go buy a pack of smokes so badly. I am also going through menopause. Today I felt spaced out, irritable, etc.. I work in a hall, and we have exercise groups that come in, so I am setting up for that, and the instructor is thier, when I bring in the ghetto blaster, she says oh thier it is!! I told her I was not informed of what equipment that they needed, and was just told, and she says well of course you need music! So I start setting it up on the table for her, and the previous class had left some cookie crumbs on the table. She seen that freaked out, and says, oh, oh, that is so discussing, oh I hate this building it is so dirty!! ok, now I have been the cleaner their for 8 years, so I am oviously offended, I did not say anything to her I just swiped up the crumbs and walked out of the room and slammed the door. I went into my office and cryed, and have been crying off and on since. I am so upset it is not funny. I just wanted to come home and crawl into bed. The building I work in is a log building, and it is rather on the dark side, in the room the class was being held. It is a beautiful building and I work my butt of cleaning it, I am always polishing the hard wood floors so that they shine, and in the summer I get the 12 ft ladder out and wash all the logs down. All the logs have varnish on them, so they are shiny too. This woman walks in their and puts down the hall, makes me feel like I am not doing a good job. I now think I should have confronted her and told her I did the cleaning, and asked her what exactley was dirty in the hall, but I am kind of glad I didn't because the way I feel, I would most likely have said something I shouldn't have.well I am going to go lay down, thanks for letting me vent.

By Mommyathome on Thursday, October 14, 2004 - 05:23 pm:

Hope you are feeling better soon.

In regards to quitting smoking.....just think of all the money you will save. You can do it! Don't give up.

By Trisa on Thursday, October 14, 2004 - 07:15 pm:

So sorry you had such a bad day.
And yes please don't give up!
Not only the money you will save
but the years you may be adding to your life!

By Emily7 on Thursday, October 14, 2004 - 07:37 pm:

You can do it. Don't let days like today get in the way of your ultimate goal. It is hard to quit, I KNOW! But it can be done.

By Mrsheidi on Thursday, October 14, 2004 - 07:40 pm:

that just stinks...i hate those days too... take one day at a time and tell yourself it's worth it. everything around you is so temporary and so is this... i feel for ya!!

By Cakekisses324 on Thursday, October 14, 2004 - 08:52 pm:

I know how you feel about stress,and trying to not pick up the cigs. My dh and I have been smoke free now, for 16mo. and feeling great. Yes sometimes it is hard, and I think you will always have that crave occasionally, but then I remind myself of the stinky clothes, that morning yuk cough, and just the whole idea of it. It is very hard, I honestly never thought I would quit, I enjoyed it so much. A pack a day...whew, I dont miss paying for them, thats for sure!lol