I am so darn lonely... (mostly just RAMBLING here)
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I am so darn lonely... (mostly just RAMBLING here)
Well, Friday began the 2nd week of dh's 2 week business trip to Russia. UGH! I am so ready for him to come home. I really would never be a good military wife. I dont know how some of you ladies do it.
The kids have been GREAT! So it's not them. I just miss having an adult to talk to at the end of my day. I have stayed very busy with the kids activities.
Spent 2 days cleaning out and painting my laundry room a pretty yellow color. It looks so great.
Spent one morning taking everything out of my Pantry. Wiped down the shelves, threw away some outdated stuff, lined the shelves and organized.
Trying to continue working out regularly.
Trimmed my shrubs out front (they were so unruly), it looks so nice now! Have a few more to finish today and then I will plant my Begonia's later this afternoon or Monday.
BIL mowed the yard/weed eated for me on Friday. Then he helped me hook up the trailor and went to furniture store with me to pick up the dining room furniture. It was SO heavy and I so appreciated his help. The China Cabinet came in ONE piece!! I wasnt much help manuevering that thing in. He even stayed and assembled the chairs/table for me. So, the dining room is now furnished after 4-1/2 yrs.  My Dad came yesterday with his trailor and loaded up all the cardboard, styrofoam, paper, that was left over from unwrapping the furniture. It literally filled his trailor up. He hauled it out to his farm to burn it for me. I sent Brandon with him to help unload the trailor. Then Brad, Blake and I went up there for dinner and picked up Brandon. So, I did hang out with my Dad yesterday and that made me feel better. (mom is in Toronto, Canada on a business trip)
Yesterday was our anniversary. Dh missed Blakes 4th bday on Easter Sunday and he missed Easter and then of course our anniversary. I think that is why I feel so lonely this week. I thought about getting depressed for a day or two and then decided I didnt have time for that.
Wednesday night when we got home from church the cat had drug in a dead rabbit. Then last night while were gone he had a bird feast in my bathroom! I am not happy about cleaning those 2 things up. ick!! Now I am considering not letting him out in the yard at all. Which will be VERY sad for him. 
My friends have stopped by several times for the kids to play and to visit with me. So I havent been totally alone. Its just not the same as having my DH here tho. Today we overslept and missed church. A friend of mine is meeting me in Fayetteville at Target in an hour (easter stuff went 90% off today ladies!) and then we are taking the kids to Chuck E Cheese for lunch. We have Bible Study groups tonight and my group is alot of fun. Which reminds me dh is missing his first Church Softball game this Tuesday night. I guess I'll take the kids and go watch the first game anyway. The boys will like that!
OK, I am going to quit rambling and whining now. LOL I promised myself I wasnt going to spend as much time on this board (i just get much more done when I am not addicted to momsview!lol). But looks like I will postpone that thinking until dh returns. ;)
Hope everyone has a great day!
I am feeling a bit down too. Dh has gone on a mountain bike vacation (he and 5 other guys do this yearly) to Moab and he's gone til next Sunday (he left Friday). I am trying to keep busy with yard work - it's been beautiful in New England - and the kids are on school vacation this week so today and tomorrow we are going to the beach. When I keep busy it's easier.
I hope this second week goes quick for you.
((((HUGS)))) to both of you. They will be home soon....hang in there!! (And if you need more projects, Conni, you could always come spend the week with me! )
Hugs!!!
More {{{HUGS}}} to both of you! You're getting a lot done. That's a BIG plus!
Oh Colette, I wish I could go to the beach with you! I miss being close to the ocean.
Hugs to you and kudos! I wish I had half your drive. Your husband will really have a great welcome home when he sees all that you've accomplished.
Ditto Trina - I used to live 15 min from the beach - now, I have no clue where the beach is! I think the closest ocean beach is in CT and I'm in NY!
Ame
((((hugs)))) It is hard having the DH's away.
Colette, my DH almost went to Moab this weekend to go jeep riding. In the end he decided to pass this time and wait till next time. Moab is a very cool place to hang out!
Yes, he's having a blast, but it's warmer in Massachusetts than it is in Moab right now. He said it's really crowded this weekend. He sent me some pics of himself riding "slickrock". They are going to some place called Fruita tomorrow, I think it's in Colorado. Looks like fun, but I'd rather be at the beach. It's going to be a bit chilly but the kids will have fun at the tide pools. If someone can post pics for me I'd show the beach pics.
This is weird--I thought I posted a message but I don't see it--huh? Anyway, are you from Northwest Arkansas? I live in Springdale--that is really neat if this is where you are from. What church do you go to? It almost sounds like Pinnacle or the one in Lowell (I can't think of the name) if it is Baptist. We go to FBC Springdale--right now I am home with a sick child, while my husband attends. When will your husband be back from his business? It sounds like you have been busy while he is gone and getting alot of things done! I would probably feel sorry for myself more than I should! I hope he returns soon.
Advice from a 30 military spouse veteran.......
Conni throw a pity party for yourself. Wait until the kids are in bed, Change the sheets on your bed to your most luxurious set, spray them with a linen sachet, pour a glass of wine, and start thinking of all the reasons you have to feel sorry for yourself right now. Work yourself into a good cry. After the cry, take a bubble bath with candles and good smelling stuff. Pamper yourself well with lotions and creams. Climb into your bed, and read a good chick novel until you fall asleep. You'll feel so much better in the morning.
{{{all you lonely wives}}} and Congrats for not letting it take over. I'm not sure I could do the same. They'll be home soon. It sound like they will be coming back to some great-looking homes. Sorry about Kitty's surprises though!
Thanks everyone.
Bea~ what a great idea! lol I didnt do any of that. But I DID get a pedicure, manicure, eye brow wax, and started tanning. (not all in the same day of course--in the last 2 weeks) So, I am definitely *treating* myself. ;)
Emdee~ I am in Rogers!! We need to chat. I cant believe someone on the board lives 10 min away from me. Thats too cool. I use to go to FBC!! Awesome church. Then when I met dh he was pretty adament about attending Church of Christ.
I know a girl that goes to the Pinnacle church and they really love it. Blake use to attend Mother's Day Out at Fellowship in Lowell! LOL Too funny!!
I wish I was going to the beach Colette! I hope you post pictures. Love to see them. BTW, hope your week goes by fast too.
Oh and Melanie, you will have to stand in line behind my sister and my Grandma! LOL Terri wants her den painted and Grandma wants me to come to Texas and paint her bathroom. In what way may I be of service to you ma'dam?
Tink, I nearly strung the cat up when I saw the bird. He is such a pain in the patoot.
Worked another 2 hours on the shrubs. They are looking really good. Still have more to trim. I think I am really slow at it.
(((HUGS)))
Can I join your pity party, too . My DH is away this week, too. Conni, I know what you mean about being lonely-the girls go to bed and it gets so quiet here. I like to have some time to myself sometimes but after a day or two it isn't so great anymore. I have also been tackling some big jobs around here while he is away. The day he left, I sealed the grout on the new tile floor in the bathrooms, did a little painting, washed the dogs and gave one a much needed haircut (I don't think he looks too bad-I hate taking him to the groomers since it usually costs $100 just for him)
But......today we are going to the beach! My mom wants to come and spend some time with the girls and she suggested the beach. She wants to hunt for seashells for their fairy house. It is going to be so warm today that I think the beach will actually be pretty busy (school vacation week here, too).
Conni,
I agree with Bea, making yourself feel spoiled is always good, and sometimes you need to just cry. I hated the fieldings at first when I was a military wife, then Amy and I started spending them together. It made it more like a girlie vacation than just misery. Then again, my marriage wasn't good, so I may be the wrong one to ask. Try to work on a hobby or craft if you have any. It helps pass time. And tell your Grandma I'll come do the bathroom for her, to help you out.... I'm already in TX!! LOL
{{{{{Conni}}}}} Us military gals do get used to this, but it's still hard. I agree with what Bea said. Do something for YOU! I'm glad your kids are being great! Mine do suprisingly well when dh is gone. We camp out on the hide-a-bed, watch lots of Disney and Nickalodean and eat lots of hot dogs and mac-n-cheese. He'll be home soon. You can have a belated anniversary! More hugs...
The last time my husband left for business was a week after I had our daughter. He was so nice though, he left me with my MIL, who hates me! I think I worked so hard to try to impress her that I didn't have time to miss my husband.
How are you doing Conni? I've run out of projects, field trips with the kids, and anything else. I can't WAIT for Sunday!
Is the secret to getting your rear moving just getting a break from our dhs? I need to kick mine out for a few days, then! I can't seem to get moving lately! My dh works nights and I've gotten used to the quiet nights, but to not see him at all during the day would be strange! We've only been apart overnight twice. No long trips without the other all this time!
I think what it is is that your dh isn't there and that gives you (a) some extra time because he is not there to spend time with and respond to; and (b) doing some major task is a distraction from the loneliness.
And, treating oneself is always a good thing to do when you are feeling lonely, picked on or abused or neglected. Just don't let the treat involve a major credit card hit.
LOL! Ginny!! The credit card staement cracked me up. You are so right. ;) I was more stressed about all the shopping my dh was doing in Russia. Sounded like he shopped everyday he was there. Oh well, what are the odds he'll ever go back right? He had sent me a dozen roses for our anniversary while he was gone. He brought me home a beautiful blue and white Rabbit dish ( i collect rabbits, unfortunately the bottom of the dish broke while traveling. sniff sniff but the top is in tact) He also brought me a Russian Gold plain wedding band, with 'From Russia with Love' 4/17/04 inscribed in it. It is written in Russian. (so i dont have a clue how to read it. LOL He thought I needed a plain band to wear while working and playing, instead of wearing my nice wedding ring. I thought that was pretty cool!
Colette~ We picked him up at the airport Friday night. He kept saying he was glad to be back in the USA. He called when he got on the ground in NYC, and said he was so glad to be back in the USA. LOL I think he really enjoyed alot of the people, the culture and the site seeing he got to do. His work went well after the first week. I think the first week was pretty trying. It's good to have him back home. He slept and read all day yesterday. Russia is 9 hrs ahead of us so he has some asdjusting to do.
Glad to hear your dh will be home TODAY!!!!! Yeah!! We made it. ;) I got burned out on projects myself. Plus it has rained everyday this week, so no working in the yard for me.
How come you never posted pic's of the beach????
My Dh just left yesterday for Brasil for 3 weeks!
I am in my last 2 months of pregnancy and have a house to pack up as well!
The trip was planned and paid for before I got pregnant and before we found the house we are buying-otherwise he would NOT be going. Luckily I have tons of family and friends who have offered to help pack and clean and babysit ds......
It's funny-although I miss him and feel stressed at the thought of doing everything myself....I feel way more energetic and want to get things done.I ran around the house cleaning everything...then my sisters came over last night with their kids and we watched a movie and had tons of snacks....my 15 year old sis is going to come and stay here almost the entire time-so I won't be totally alone.
Now that I cleaned the bathroom-I know that it will STAY that way probably for the whole 3 weeks!!!LOL!!!!!-no more pee and hair all over the place!!
fiona
Colette, is your dh home yet?
Fiona, I hope your dh has a good trip!! I would love to go to Brazil. Glad to hear you have so much help while he is away. Are you moving? Take good care of yourself while he is away and DONT do too much!! Accept all the help you can get with packing, lifting boxes, etc... I did way too much when I was pregnant with my 2nd ds, my back is still weak 10 yrs later. Please be careful.
I had to giggle about your clean bathroom. My dh's side of the bathroom stayed clean and uncluttered for 2 weeks. He's home and all of his *things* are scattered about his counter again. lol Oh well...... Gotta love 'em.
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