I just wanted everyone to know I appreciate all the kind words. I have been reading them everyday. We are doing a little better, only I think because Christopher cheers us up. Bed time is still rough, Jimmy stays awake all night, and I cry myself to sleep.
Today is the first day my body feels "normal". Jimmy broke down today when I passed all the gross tissue and stuff. I guess it finally sunk in with him. I'm glad he cried and got everything out, maybe he will be able to sleep tonight.
I am going back to work tomorrow. I need a distraction. Hopefully I will be up to it. I am just afraid all the sympathy from my co-workers will upset me.

I had 2 nice things happen in the midst of all this pain. Over the weekend, when I was complaining about the bed rest and being so useless, my FIL said "Just tell her to consider herself a decorator, because just sitting there makes the house prettier" He never says sweet things, so I took it to heart.

And my husband (after taking care of the baby and the house all weekend alone) said I must be superwoman to get everything done and still have time to be a great mom and wife.

Anyways, just wanted to give an update on how we were doing. Thanks again for thoughts and prayers.

By Karen~moderator on Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - 06:55 pm:

More {{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}} to you, Jennifer. I hope you're feeling better soon.

By Colette on Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - 08:11 pm:

(((Jennifer))) I am so glad you have such a great dh. I hope as each day passes you feel a little better.

By Melanie on Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - 09:04 pm:

(((HUGS)))

What wonderful things your FIL and dh said. I am glad to hear you are in good hands with them.

We are always here for you.

By Emily7 on Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - 09:19 pm:

((((Jennifer)))) You sound like you have some great men in your life. Continued thoughts & prayers for you & your family.

By Beth on Wednesday, May 11, 2005 - 09:40 pm:

I didn't get a chance to post before but wanted you to know I was thinking of you. Good luck to you and your family. ((HUGS))

By Amecmom on Thursday, May 12, 2005 - 09:16 am:

Hugs. It's so great that you are able to take joy in the positive. Kepp feeling better.
Ame

By Debbie on Thursday, May 12, 2005 - 10:25 am:

{{{hugs}}} It sounds like you have a wonderful, supportive family to help you get through this.

By Rayanne on Thursday, May 12, 2005 - 01:22 pm:

{{{{{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}}}}
Ditto Debbie

E-Mail me is you need to talk Jenn.
My address is in my profile.
I haven't experienced what you are going through, but if you need someone, I'm here.
Love ya.

By Bellajoe on Thursday, May 12, 2005 - 02:38 pm:

I am so sorry for your loss. It is good to have a wonderful family with you.

By Wandilu on Friday, May 13, 2005 - 11:43 pm:

I haven't been on the board in a few days,so I just now saw this.I am SO sorry for your loss.Please,make sure that you allow yourself to "feel" everything that you are going through,so that you can get through this,completely.If you need to grieve,then by all means,do it.So many times in life,we women tend to forget our own needs,while we take care of our loved ones.This is a very important time for you.Please,take care!!You are in my prayers.

By Truestori on Saturday, May 14, 2005 - 02:53 pm:

Jenn,
Many ehugs for you and your family.

By Cocoabutter on Saturday, May 14, 2005 - 09:01 pm:

I am glad you are on the road to recovery.

God Bless and take it easy, just one day at a time.