How things change
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How things change
Yesterday I attended an annual Memorial service for infant loss/miscarriage etc..
I found out about this memorial sevice when I use to attend a miscarriage/infant loss support group about 5 years ago. The group helped me more then words could ever say. After having 4 miscarriages in a row, I was in a deep dark hole..
After Faith was born, I never stopped thinking about the 4 babies I lost, but "things" just felt different.As the years passed , I thought the hurt from those miscarriages lessened.
I had not been to a memorial service in 2 yrs. My husaband went with me for the first time yesterday.He never went before as he would stay home with the kids. Since my son now babysits, my son stayed with his sisters.
It was nice to have my husband with me, as sometimes I "forget" it was his loss as well..When I was going through the miscarriages, I felt like it was "only me". I had sometimes forgotten he was part of the mix.
I suprised myself how much I teared up during the memorial service yesterday, as I felt like I had not cried about my losses for such a long time.
Still, I don't completely understand why I lost so many babies. All I know that "Faith" is here for a reason.
While sitting there in the service, I was reflecting back to my losses, and as sad as I was, I knew all those losses brought me "Faith".
Thank you for letting me share my journey with you all.
{{{HUGS}}}
(((HUGS))) from me too..
{{{HUGS}}} Thank you for sharing...
Jackie, it doesn't surprise me at all that you still feel that loss. I'm glad your DH went with you, this was a loss you experienced together, and I think it's probably a healing step for you both, together as a couple.
{{{{{HUGS}}}}}
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