I have often come here to vent to you wonderful ladies and I just wanted to share with you how happy I am. For the first time ever I just don't feel stress when it comes to my mother. Coming to peace with her and her ways has allowed me to let go of many of my own perfectionist habits. I've been hindering myself from doing many things and I'm getting over it. For example I would have never tried out for dance team until I lost weight. Now I did it just to have fun and I am. It does wonders for me mentally and physically. I had my ds very young- 18 and fell into the motherhood role completely. It's fun to realize another part of myself. I've also been experimenting in the kitchen and have been pleased with the results. I've been playing with those restaurant copycat recipes. My family is happy about that too! I don't know how to explain it. For the past few weeks I've been feeling happier, lighter and I think younger! I seem to quit putting pressure on myself and I think my house is actually cleaner!

By Angellew on Wednesday, February 27, 2008 - 01:25 pm:

This really is wonderful news! I'm so happy you are finally coming to terms with your mother, and reconciling with your life! And I'm glad to hear you are doing things just for you!!! And a Dance Team!!!! WOW!!! Awesome!!!

You should be very proud of yourself!

By Happynerdmom on Wednesday, February 27, 2008 - 01:36 pm:

That's wonderful, Rayelle. Good for you.

By Dawnk777 on Wednesday, February 27, 2008 - 03:10 pm:

You go girl! (Wanna come clean my house?)

By Nicki on Wednesday, February 27, 2008 - 03:52 pm:

Rayelle, I am so happy for you!:-)

By Wandilu on Wednesday, February 27, 2008 - 10:34 pm:

Rayelle, what a life changing experience that you have gone through!! Good for you!! A few years ago, I was able to let go of RAGE that I had carried in my heart for several of my family members that had hurt me tremendously as I was growing up. It is the most amazing feeling! I can even be around my older sister, and ,for the most part ,take her with a grain of salt !!!

By Ginny~moderator on Thursday, February 28, 2008 - 06:39 am:

Rayelle, I am so happy for you and so proud of you. You are rightly proud of yourself. And Wandilu, good for you.

Doesn't it feel good to take the high road and come out happy?